The_Tragic_Truth_Of_Me

2012-01-09T23:49:00.000-08:00

TIPS PERKAHWINAN

1. KETIKA MENCARI CALON
Janganlah mencari isteri, tapi carilah ibu bagi anak-anak kita. Janganlah mencari suami, tapi carilah ayah bagi anak-anak kita.

2. KETIKA MELAMAR
Anda bukan sedang meminta kepada orang tua/wali si gadis, tetapi meminta kepada Allah melalui orang tua/wali si gadis.

3. KETIKA AKAD NIKAH
Anda berdua bukan menikah di hadapan penghulu, tetapi menikah di hadapan Allah.

4. KETIKA RESEPSI PERNIKAHAN
Catat dan hitung semua tamu yang datang untuk mendoa’kan anda, kerana anda harus berfikir untuk mengundang mereka semua dan meminta maaf apabila anda berfikir untuk BERCERAI kerana menyia-nyiakan do’a mereka.

5. KETIKA MALAM PERTAMA
Bersyukur dan bersabarlah. Anda adalah sepasang anak manusia dan bukan sepasang malaikat.

6. SELAMA MENEMPUH HIDUP BERKELUARGA
Sedarilah bahawa jalan yang akan dilalui tidak melalui jalan bertabur bunga, tapi juga semak belukar yang penuh onak dan duri.

7. KETIKA RUMAH TANGGA GOYANG
Jangan saling berlepas tangan, tapi sebaliknya justru semakin erat berpegang tangan.

8. KETIKA BELUM MEMILIKI ANAK
Cintailah isteri atau suami anda 100%

9. KETIKA TELAH MEMILIKI ANAK
Cintailah isteri atau suami anda 100% dan cintai anak-anak anda masing-masing 100%.

10. KETIKA EKONOMI KELUARGA MERUDUM
Yakinlah bahawa pintu rezeki akan terbuka lebar berbanding lurus dengan tingkat ketaatan suami dan isteri.

11 .KETIKA EKONOMI BERKEMBANG
Jangan lupa akan jasa pasangan hidup yang setia mendampingi kita semasa menderita.

12. KETIKA ANDA ADALAH SUAMI
Boleh bermanja-manja kepada isteri tetapi jangan lupa untuk bangkit secara bertanggungjawab apabila isteri memerlukan pertolongan Anda.

13. KETIKA ANDA ADALAH ISTERI
Tetaplah berjalan dengan gemalai dan lemah lembut, tetapi selalu berhasil menyelesaikan semua pekerjaan. Allahuallam ..:) sharing is caring .hehe

Dropping rains of my love...

2010-12-17T21:30:00.001-08:00

Once someone I loved left me and I thought it was all because of me, so I couldn't hold onto him.
I thought that I could forget this pain, that another love will come to me.. but why can't I forget?
All I can do is to look up to the sky and shout once again "love me", when this little hope in my heart becomes rain and falls to the ground.

When my love rains on my head the memories come alive again. When it rains on my heart I think of the precious love. When the rain touches my lips, I can hear the words "I love you" . Following the road where the rain goes, you'll see me waiting for you patiently with open arms.

Open the box called love with they key of faith, call with the phone transmitting a prayer called love, even if my heart can't find you.All I can do is to look up at the sky and shout once again "love me", when this little hope in my heart becomes rain and falls.

Return again to that time.. my life beginning to rewind itself...When I shout your name in my heart... the love rain falls...

When your love rains in front of my eyes you stand in front of me. When it rains on my ears, you whisper love into my ears again. I love you when I hug you, when I become happy again. Following the road where the sun shines on, we will see us together forever for the rest of our lives..

Once again I'm praying for you to come back to me...

BTS of Nadia & Hamzah

2010-09-23T08:40:00.000-07:00

Anyway, another nice work done by Manggis. Your manggis is getting riper with this latest work.

About a boy and a girl who fall in love every summer – that’s nice and catchy (pun intended…unlike in the US, it is always summertime in Malaysia). Quick glimpse on the trailer, the film is light, light-hearted with light-footed couple prancing around or near a cliff and a desert in Las Vegas and in the city of LA and KL. In the world of Hamzah and Nadia, love is about sunshine and passionate love albeit the summertime. Summertime connotes exhilaration that cannot describe the delirious degree of passion. That’s my two-sen.

ISTIKHARAH PENUNJUK ARAH

2010-09-01T02:06:00.000-07:00

“Ustaz, saya dan tunang saya sudah hampir ke tarikh pernikahan kami. Tetapi tunang saya telah secara mendadak memutuskan pertunangan kami. Beliau bermimpi melihat seorang perempuan lain dan setelah beristikharah, beliau yakin perempuan itu adalah pilihan sebenarnya kerana ia muncul dengan petunjuk Allah. Bagaimana pandangan ustaz? Saya dan keluarga saya serta keluarga tunang saya sangat terkilan. Apakah benar saya sudah dikeluarkan daripada petunjuk Allah? Di mana silap saya, ustaz?"

Sepucuk emel dihantar kepada saya.

Beristighfar dan mengurut dada.

Percaya atau tidak, gejala ini semakin menjadi-jadi.

Malah di kalangan pelajar universiti, Istikharah semakin popular di dalam trend yang tersendiri. Ia diamalkan bagi ‘memaksa’ Allah membuat pilihan untuk mereka. Berbekalkan kejadian persekitaran atau mimpi yang disangka petunjuk, kadang-kadang ‘pilihan Allah’ itu adalah tunang orang, suami orang, malah ada juga isteri orang. Bertindak atas nama ‘petunjuk Allah’, tercetus permusuhan sesama anak Adam.

Apakah Allah, atau Syaitan yang memberikan ‘petunjuk’ penuh mudarat dan zalim itu?MEMBELAKANGKAN ILMU

Penyakit besar yang melanda anak-anak muda terbabit ialah beribadah tanpa ilmu. Mereka melaksanakan Solat Istikharah berdasarkan saranan rakan-rakan yang juga melakukannya atas saranan kawan-kawan yang lain. Berapa ramaikah yang membuka kitab Fiqh atau belajar mengenai Solat itu dan ibadah yang lain melalui para ustaz dan alim ulama’?

Keadaan ini menjadi lebih bermasalah apabila ada pula agamawan yang mengesyorkan panduan-panduan yang tidak berdasarkan keterangan al-Quran dan al-Sunnah malah diajar pula kaifiyat yang sangat membuka ruang manipulasi Syaitan dalam mengaburi pertimbangan anak Adam.

Mengira huruf tertentu di dalam Surah, menyelak secara rawak mushaf dan mencari petunjuk di muka surat yang terbuka, juga paling banyak meniti di minda ialah menanti mimpi yang menjawab permintaan.

Ia mengingatkan saya kepada pandangan Sheikh Saleem bin Eid al-Hilali di dalam kitab Bahjah al-Nadzireen syarah kepada Riyadh al-Sholiheen:

“Ada sesetengah orang berpendapat, “sesudah mengerjakan solat serta Doa Istikharah, akan muncullah nanti petunjuk dalam mimpinya, maka dia akan memilih sebagaimana yang ditunjukkan oleh mimpinya itu” Justeru ada sesetengah orang berwudhu’ dan kemudian melakukan Solat serta Doa Istikharah dan terus tidur (dengan meletakkan harapan petunjuk datang melalui mimpi), malah ada juga mereka yang sengaja memakai pakaian berwarna putih kerana mengharapkan mimpi yang baik. Semua ini hakikatnya adalah prasangka manusia yang tidak berasas”

Menjadi satu keperluan yang sangat penting untuk kita kembali kepada maksud asal Solat Istikharah.

Istikharah itu bermaksud meminta bantuan daripada Allah untuk seseorang itu memilih di antara beberapa kemungkinan yang diharuskan oleh Syara’. Ada pun pilihan yang berada antara manfaat dan mudarat, apatah lagi Halal dan Haram hatta Makruh, maka tidak harus untuk Istikharah dilakukan kerana tindakan yang sepatutnya diambil sangat jelas iaitu pada meninggal dan menghindarkan pilihan yang tidak baik itu.

Sabda Rasulullah sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam :

Hadith yang dikeluarkan oleh al-Bukhari di dalam Sahihnya dengan sanadnya daripada Jabir radhiyallaahu ‘anhuma, beliau berkata

Daripada Nabi sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam Baginda bersabda:

Apabila sesiapa daripada kalangan kamu diberatkan oleh sesuatu maka hendaklah dia Rukuk dengan dua Rukuk (mengerjakan Solat dua rakaat) yang selain daripada Solat yang Fardhu(yakni mengerjakan Solat dua Rakaat dengan niat Istikharah).

Kemudian hendaklah dia berdoa: Ya Allah, aku beristikharahkan Engkau dengan ilmu-Mu dan aku juga memohon ketetapan dengan ketetapan yang bersandarkan kurniaan-Mu yang Maha Agung. Engkaulah yang Maha Menetapkan sedangkan aku tidak mampu untuk menetapkan. Engkau Maha Mengetahui dan aku pula tidak mengetahui. Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui akan perkara-perkara yang tersembunyi. Ya Allah, jika pada ilmu-Mu sesungguhnya urusan ini – harus disebut hajat tersebut atau cukup sekadar meniatkannya kerana Allah Maha Mengetahui akan hajat itu – adalah baik untukku pada agama, kehidupan dan kesudahan urusanku (kini dan datang), maka tetapkanlah ia untukku dan mudahkanlah ia bagiku. Kemudian berkatilah bagiku di dalam pilihan ini. Dan andaikata pada ilmu-Mu sesungguhnya hal ini adalah buruk bagiku pada agama, kehidupan dan kesudahan urusanku (kini dan akan datang), maka hindarkanlah ia daripadaku dan hindarkanlah aku daripadanya. Tetapkanlah bagiku kebaikan dan jadikanlah aku redha dengannya.

ANTARA ISTIKHARAH DAN ISTISYARAH

Istikharah itu mempunyai gandingan yang memberi tambahan kemudahan. Ia dikenali sebagai Istisyarah.

Istisyarah ini bermaksud meminta pendapat mereka yang boleh dipercayai untuk membantu seseorang itu membuat keputusan.

Sheikh al-Islam Ibn Taimiyyah rahimahullah pernah berkata:

“Tidak akan menyesal seorang yang beristikharah kepada al-Khaliq (Allah) serta bermesyuarat dengan para Makhluq, serta tetap pendirian dalam keputusannya”

Biar pun para Ulama berselisih pendapat tentang mana yang patut didahulukan antara Istisyarah dan Istikharah, ia tidak menjejaskan bahagian yang perlu dimainkan oleh seorang manusia dalam proses dirinya membuat keputusan. Sebelum sampai kepada pertimbangan memilih antara dua kebaikan, seseorang yang berhajat itu mestilah mempunyai asas dalam penilaiannya agar pilihan yang ada di depan matanya adalah antara dua perkara yang harus serta sama baik. Sudah tentu, hal ini juga memerlukan dirinya untuk mengambil bahagian dengan berusaha.

Setelah beristikharah, namun hati masih berada di dalam ketidak pastian, harus baginya untuk mengulangi Solat dan Doa Istikharah itu hingga beroleh ketetapan hati dalam membuat keputusan. Di samping itu juga, dia dianjurkan beristisyarah, yakni meminta pendapat individu-individu yang dipercayai integriti dan kemahirannya dalam urusan tersebut, agar keputusan boleh dibuat.

Titik pentingnya ialah, keputusan hendaklah kita yang berhajat itu melakukannya dan bukan menyerahkan kepada Allah untuk membuat keputusan itu dan menampakkanya melalui petanda-petanda yang dicari. Di sinilah ruang untuk fitnah berlaku apabila dalam suasana hidup kita yang dibelenggu oleh pelbagai maksiat serta Iman yang teruji, kita membuka suatu ruang kosong untuk dicelah oleh tipu helah Syaitan.

Tambahan pula dalam keadaan jiwa anak muda yang selalu lemah untuk menolak kehendak diri dan sering terdorong mengikut kemahuan. Jiwanya tidak bulat meminta kepada Allah, sebaliknya bermain helah untuk mengharapkan Allah menyokong kecenderungan dirinya sendiri.

Berhentilah mencari mimpi.

Berhentilah menunggu petanda.

Beristikharah memanggil kebersamaan Allah dalam keputusan yang kita buat. Kita yang membuat keputusan itu, dengan keyakinan hasil Istikharah, bahawa keputusan yang kita buat itu adalah dengan kebersamaan Allah. Jika di kemudian hari, pada pilihan yang dibuat itu, datang mehnah yang menguji kehidupan, kita tidak akan berfikiran negatif malah berusaha untuk mencari sisi-sisi positif pada apa yang berlaku kerana keputusan yang dibuat dahulu itu adalah dengan kelengkapan Syariatullah (Istikharah) serta Sunnatullah (Istisyarah – Ikhtiar Usaha).

Pertimbangkanlah… seandainya pilihan yang disangkakan petunjuk daripada Allah itu mencetuskan mudarat, permusuhan, meninggalkan yang afdhal dan mengambil yang mafdhul… berhati-hatilah.

Ia mungkin mainan Syaitan.

“Sebahagian (daripada umat manusia) diberi hidayah petunjuk oleh Allah (dengan diberi taufiq untuk beriman dan beramal soleh); dan sebahagian lagi (yang ingkar) berhaklah mereka ditimpa kesesatan (dengan pilihan mereka sendiri), kerana sesungguhnya mereka telah menjadikan syaitan-syaitan itu pemimpin-pemimpin (yang ditaati) selain Allah. serta mereka pula menyangka, bahawa mereka berada di dalam petunjuk hidayah” [Al-Aa'raaf 7: 30]

KESIMPULAN

1. Hindarkan diri daripada kesukaran menetapkan pendirian dalam kehidupan. Was-was adalah permainan Syaitan dan penyakit jiwa yang mengundang bahaya.

2. Dalam hal-hal yang tiada keraguan dalam membuat pilihan keputusan, ia tidak berhajatkankepada Istikharah.

3. Ketika berdepan dengan pilihan yang sukar ditentukan, gunakan pertimbangan diri untuk melihat buruk baiknya.

4. Jika jelas mudarat atau sudah ditentukan Haram hukumnya, maka tidak harus beristikharah.

5. Pada perkara yang sukar untuk dibuat keputusan, beristikharahlah kepada Allah mengikut kaifiyat Solat Istikharah dan Doa yang Ma’thur daripada Rasulullah sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam.

6. Istikharah boleh diulang beberapa kali hingga beroleh ketetapan hati untuk membuat keputusan.

7. Di samping itu juga beristisyarahlah dengan meminta pandangan pihak yang boleh dipercayai kewibawaannya.

8. Petunjuk daripada Allah ialah kemampuan hati untuk tetap pendirian membuat keputusan.

9. Hindarilah perbuatan menunggu mimpi atau petanda berbentuk isyarat kerana ia sangat terbuka kepada belitan Iblis.

10. Jauhi Bid’ah dan Syirik.

11. Setelah keputusan dibuat, bertawakkallah kepada Allah dan tenang dengan keputusan itu.

12. Seandainya timbul cabaran atau muncul sisi kekurangan pada pilihan yang dipilih, tiada fikiran negatif muncul kerana yakin adanya hikmah dan kebaikan daripada Allah.

13. Istikharah terbuka kepada apa sahaja urusan kehidupan yang berada di dalam ruang lingkupkeharusan Syara’ dan salah jika hanya dilihat sebagai mekanisme jodoh.

14. Rujuklah kitab-kitab Fiqh serta panduan Sunnah dalam urusan Istikharah serta ibadah-ibadah yang lain.

15. Melakukan ibadah dengan hanya berpandukan hearsay adalah pintu kebinasaan dalam beragama.

*Artikel asal bertajuk "Fitnah Petunjuk Istikharah" dariwww.saifulislam.com

♥ kenape ALLAH temukan kita dengan org y salah ♥

2010-09-01T02:01:00.000-07:00

Memang sakit bila cinta yg kita dambakan selama ini tak dihargai oleh insan yg bernama kekasih,apatah lagi kita dibuang begitu saja... tapi,itulah juga petanda terbaik untuk diri dan kehidupan kita pada masa akan datang.

1. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya apabila kita bertemu jodoh yg sebenar,masih ada rasa syukur kita pada ketentuanNYA.

2. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat menjadi penilai yg baik.

3. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa kita hanyalah makhluk yg sentiasa mengharapkan pertolongan ALLAH.

4. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat KASIH SAYANG YANG TERBAIK,KHAS UNTUK DIRI KITA.

5. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa ALLAH MAHA PEMURAH & PENYAYANG kerana mengingatkan kita bahawa dia bukanlah pilihan yg hebat untuk kita dan kehidupan kita pada masa depan...

6. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat mengutip pengalaman yg tak semua orang berpeluang untuk mengalaminya.

7. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita jadi MANUSIA YG HEBAT JIWANYA.

8. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita lebih faham bahawa CINTA YG TERBAIK HANYA ADA BERSAMA ALLAH.

9. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita LEBIH MENGENALI KEHIDUPAN YG TAK SELAMANYA KEKAL.

Wahai sahabat yg kecewa,menderita dan sengsara kerana cinta, fahamilah bahawa kehidupan kita makin sampai ke penghujungnya.

Hari esok pun kita sendiri tak pasti samada menjadi milik kita. Gapailah keredhaan ALLAH dengan melaksanakan suruhanNYA, dan meninggalkan laranganNYA..

PERCAYALAH sesungguhnya ALLAH malu untuk menolak permintaan hambaNYA yg menadah tangan meminta dengan penuh pengharapan HANYA kepadaNYA..

check it out guys..

2010-08-25T01:20:00.001-07:00

my experience here.. :)

2010-05-30T03:03:00.000-07:00

I remember the first time in my grad school I met these two girls, named Arianna and Lisa. They are my best friends. On the other hand, I have seen them almost every day in school, so I have begun to notice very big differences and similarities in these two girls’ interactions. They have very different and similar views on personal attitude, sharing and their attention spans.

Arianna has one of the more unique attitudes I have realize since I was friend of her. She is a very sweet girl, but only when she wants to be. On the other hand, Lisa is very fanciful and easily led along. She is usually always smiles and behaves except for when it's time to eat lunch. She gets hungry so fast, and she skips the line to get the lunch first. When two of them together, I constantly hear Arianna talking too much, she is always bossy around Lisa, she more likely has big mouth. Lisa doesn’t fight back Arianna does. When we have to share something to each other Arianna is almost incapable of sharing anything.

On the contrary, they have some of the personal attitude, sharing and their attention spans in common. For instance, they both are best friends, and refer to each other as such. Similarly, when something is hard for them they both make statements such as “I can’t do it”. In addition, when they get into class and it about to start they ask teacher for bathroom pass every day.

In conclusion, for all the similarities that these two girls have in common, they have twice as many differentiations, neither of which bothers them. I wonder if they are going to be my friends forever, but I don't have to think very hard to know that they will.

it's been a while.............

2010-03-29T22:50:00.000-07:00

it has been a while since my last post isn't it??so very truly sorry for that..it's kinda hard to update myself for now because of my lil one..too many things that i have to catch up on especially on my studies..huhu..i had this pretty hectic schedule for myself nowadays..sometimes i can't sleep for days..just imagine that!! really2 need a time out for myself for the upcoming break..huhu..really2 in need of my mom..huhu..miss her so..very..much..now i know what its like to be a 'mom' now..huhu..thanks 4 a lot mum 4 what you've done for me throughout all these years..love you mum!!!!

i'll be back for the next post..but i do not know when will i have time to update myself..huhu..

sick & tired...

2010-02-03T03:55:00.000-08:00

i got into homesick fever..again..lately really2 missing HOME, my FAMILY and my FRIENDs back home..it feels like ages..since my last holiday..again, with the new assgments..new responsibilities..i don't think that i can MANAGE them equally..need extra hands..thanks for my mommy for helping me with my lil one..really2 appreciate it..i will try my best to finish up my studies and hoping i can go back HOME asap..in need of a lil rest for MYSELF..need TIME OUT!

need help..

2010-01-18T05:56:00.000-08:00

looking for a new house to rent..if possible next month..anyone got any suggestions?only for US residents..

tiba tiba panas!!!!

2010-01-13T01:59:00.000-08:00

dari pagi sampai ke petang naseb malang jee kot
orang kate dugaan
haha, terime jela dgn tangan terbuka..huhu..

tapi bak kate someone tu..
nie da strike two nie
strike three memang out
MEMANG OUT
I TELL YA..
ade aku kesah kew..kn?

nak dipendekkan cite
macam lake
ayat panjangnye
macammmmm cilakeeeeee

tak tipu!
da benci ngan this place kot!
bulan depan out laa
kate2 akhir
PEGI JAHANAM!

macam aku kesah pulak en?!

bengang!!! tense!!! pressure!!!

2010-01-12T01:35:00.000-08:00

bengang!! bengang!! bengang!!
my allowance got cut off...huhu..
somebody please have mercy on me..huhu..
how am i goin to survive in this world??
need a lil source..i think i can get one..
sort off...huhu..

my new lil one..

2009-12-23T23:36:00.000-08:00

sorry for the late entry..been busy lately with my lil one..been takin a lot of my time..but it's quite great to have a new lil one in my life..juz by watching the cute lil face makes my heart melt down..all my pains & problems that i've always been thru all these years went away..feelin like the new beginning of my entire life..im starting my new book..

someone once said to me..
"its just like life..if there's no bitterness,u'll never experience happiness"
u'll face hardship in life..u have to be strong and face it..by the end of the day,happiness will be yours..
and most of all..don't ever overestimate yourself..

mourning mode..

2009-11-21T06:40:00.000-08:00

i just lost my 'best friend' a few days ago..still in mourning..her name is Farah Liana..she died in a accident..she was knocked down by a crazy drunk driver..i just can't believe it because it happened in front of my eyes..till today i can't get the image outta my head..it's too tragic..

actually,the real story here is that..i haven't heard anything from her since April..but 2 weeks ago she emailed me.I'm quite shocked because I've been trying to find her everywhere.she used to be one of my housemates..but because of her silly mistakes,she moved out.i didn't kicked her out of the house but she wanted to be alone and handle her problems herself.i tried to stop her but..

on her email,she did mention to me that she thankful to have a friend like me n she knew that all along I've always be there for her because she knew my story n i know hers.she also did mentioned that she wanted to see me and wanted to talk to me about something.it's been a long time since i last met her.so, we did met at our favorite place.she seemed to me like a different person at that night.so,we talked and talked for hours..

the things that she wanted to talk to me,I'm sorry i can't mention it here..it's her last wish and will..it's kinda private.i need to give her a lil respect although now, she's gone..

Farah,smoga taubat u diterima Allah,roh u dicucuri rahmat-Nya & u berada di kalangan org2 yg beriman..amin..i'll hold on to your last wish as hard as i can..insyallh...

bday..finals..bday..finals..

2009-10-14T01:21:00.000-07:00

just turning in to 9teen last 11th oct 2009...i knoe that this particular tym is very crucial for those who are in uni life isn't it..its the 'final season'..kinda lyk its the final countdown..haha..for me,mine will b on 28th nov onwards..i dun hav much tym anymore..huhu..ryt now,im done with certain things & sbmitted my assgments on tym..there are lots more to go..huhu..next 2 weeks i'll have my public speaking.i am not quite ready with it..but im pretty sure i can do it..lyk my mom used to say to me always.."without effort we'll be goin nowhere"..so..keep it up!there are more things to be updated...OMG..need more tym..i'll update more on my bday tym mayb on the next post ok.so do wait for it ok..

my dear friend,iqa..
sowyla i dsturb u with my calls & evrything on that day..
i knoe dat its not 'the perfect tym to call u' ok?
i just wanna to say hi..then dat day plak WAS MY BIRTHDAY..so..its okla.
i xtaw la plak tym 2 u bz & hectic glewr..smpai ur life pn miserable glewr..kn?huhu..soorryy sgt2..hope dat u'll do great in your finals..
and take care ok?dh nk finals nie jga diri lek lok..jgn dmam2 lg taw!
hope to c u very soon..maybe by end of this year..
do keep in touch k?luv ya syg..

lecture tym..hehe..

2009-09-24T09:54:00.000-07:00

i've given someone last nyt a piece of my mind..haha..it's quite given me a lil satisfaction..hehe..its not that bad..i just wanna make her realize that she gotta open her eyes wider..stop dreaming & just step into the real world.its for her own good..i dun wanna see her suffer anymore..just wanna help her build a new life..hope she'll understand that i did that because i love her..i wanna see her happy..im tired of seeing her being tossin around & being played behind her back.felt sorry for her..

tym2 sengal..hehe..

2009-09-17T06:27:00.000-07:00

awl2 pg cmnie..ntahla..tiba2 i feel like sayu je dlm hati nie..huhu..tym emo+mood swing..hehe..phm2 jela ek..yela..sempena raya ni dh nk dkat nie kn.. ape2 yg TER atau SENGAJA... mintak mahap byk2 la yer... semoga raya kali ni.. dapat mengumpul duit raya yg banyak!! selamat hari raya sume!! drive carefully!! semoga selamat sampai ke destinasi pilihan masing2...SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN dariku..FINNYMOE..

sesuatu dari hatiku..

2009-09-17T06:18:00.000-07:00

Mata tak bertentang,
Mohon maaf segala kekhilafan yang telah kulakukan....
Kerana ada tikanya...
Mata silap memandang,
Telinga salah mendengar,
Lidah terlanjur berkata-kata,
Hati tersalah menduga..

Salam Aifilfitri ku ucapkan dari kejauhan ini...
dan seribu kemaafan dariku fatin izatul nadia......FIN

craving 4 bubur lambuk..

2009-09-02T00:14:00.000-07:00

just got back from embassy..break fast with other m'sians student here..bbuke kt embassy mmg the best.feelin blessed coz finally i can taste m'sian food.sebut je kueh pe,smua ade..rse cam kt msia je just now..thank god..dpt kumpul rmai2,share our xperiences 2gether n pas2 solat terawikh sme2..then rye t pn same2..huhu..

need a lil protection...huhu..

2009-09-01T23:46:00.000-07:00

HELP!!!

need protection..asap..huhu..there goes my dirty lil secret..now..dh de org taw my weaknesses..huhu..NO!!!!since last 2 days,evrytym de je yg ske usik & messin with me.dorg dh taw i nie melatah..TIDAK!!! igtkn dlu tym2 high skewl je.ble dh abis high skewl,kte tot dh xde org nk usik kte.bleh la stop this 'melatah thing' huhu..last2 pecah jgk rahsia...OMG!!udah2 le usik kte..penat taw..give me a lil mercy k?kesian la kt kte nie.huhu..dh la dlm bulan puasa cmni..adoyaii..hopefully xmelarat sgt la.huhu..

anyone can help me reduce @ buang jauh2 penyakit ske melatah nie??
share ngan i k?really2 need help..asap..dh penat if evryday cmnie taw..huhu.. :(

on the hospital bed..

2009-08-16T21:24:00.000-07:00

by the exact tym i post this particular entry..i am on the hospital bed..& using naim's lappy.im pretty sure how,y,when kind of question will pop up on your mind ryt?well..no worries..im in still in a good shape..its just that i pushed too hard on myself.i need to slow down a bit..i need some rest!

as u all know,from my previous post..i got robbed.so,all my assgments,papers,projects all gone.so i have to start all over again.k.repeat..ALL OVER AGAIN.so,all my work now has been doubled..huhu..penat..but thank god,naim's here to help me.hehe..thanks dear..@ night pn sumtimes,he's waiting 4 me here..so nice of him..but dont think too far ok.he's here for some reasons..helping me finished up my work and evrything & sumtimes we're just talking throughout the night.lots of stuff i know about him now from then.

back to the previous story..y am i on the hospital bed?hm...

i've been admitted to this hospital @ august 14th.i've been here bcoz during my lecture class,particularly my literature class..i suddenly passed out.i didn't know whats goin on afterwards..what i know is i woke up the next day,i was on the bed,with naim's sleeping ont the couch beside my bed.at first i was quite shocked to find out how come he's here & not my housemates or anything..(mmg btuah la dpt housemate cam korg..im glad sgt2..hishh..sengal la korg nieyhh..ske je kenakan i xpe2...ari ni ari korg..esk2 ari i plak.sbo je lew..hehe)doc said that i overworked..i need to take my time off for a few days + i suffers from a food poisoning+headaches+stomach ache..i stucked here bcoz yesterday i caught a very bad flu & now my nose is still running.so doc,need to examine me for the influenza A H1N1 bcoz i got a lil symptoms on that particular case.NOT AGAIN..huhu..i think lately,i've been a kinda lyk a lab mouse la..huhu..

forgot to mention here...now..SOMEBODY KNOWS MY DIRTY LIL SECRET..OMG!!!GET ME OUTTA HERE!!!

hope that i can get out from here soon..but its kinda great been here bcoz i can rest & hav a nice chit chat with the cute interns..hehe..pray for me to get better soon k!catch u all on the next post.bye!

my lyf is ruined..huhu

2009-08-11T00:50:00.000-07:00

i miss my lappy....huhu..its all in there...mr robbery man..if u ever had a heart somewhere inside u...please..just send me back my lappy...huhu..please...im beggin u..all my programs,my plans,my pics,my precious memories with my family & friends...all in there..its kinda like my personal life in that particular lappy..huhu..i cannot function properly without my other half..huhu..its ruined..u make my life miserable..i hav 2 start evrything all back...huhu..poor me..lagi la bertambah2 kerja i..huhu..ya allah,knape la byk sgt dugaan dlm idupku ini?ko tabahknlah diriku ini utk menjalani kehidupan ini ya allah..amin...

ps:not forgetting my syg,iqa..hope u'll get well soon ok!byk2 kn rest taw..take care aight!
i luv ya &mish ya lotts!!hugs & kisses from me!!..muachxx!!

just got invaded..arghh!!!

2009-08-11T00:21:00.000-07:00

tension2...its all i can say 4 nw...a lot of my stuff is gone missing!!!no!!!somebody call 911..huhu..
i lost my phone,my iphone,precious lappy...huhu..ya'll can say some of my gadget stuff just got stolen from my house...man..damn..some of my housemate pn de jgk yg lost fon,some money..arghh!!tension2!!..

fyi..b4 this invading stuff happened..a few weeks back..i thought that some1's following me..its kinda like a stalker.huhuhu..scary dowhh..then..a few anonymous calls callin' me but there's nobody nobody on the other line..adoyaii..takut seyhhh...i try talking bout this to naim..but then he said that maybe somebody wanted to prank me or something...just messin around with me..i didn't tell my family yet about this matter.just that xnk dorg wsaw la..besides,fasting month is just around the corner ryt?so..i think that i should keep it to myself dlu la..t la kowt bgtaw dorg..

just now,i got an email..i dont know from who..but ,the msg stated is that..
i think i was from a guy..i guess..huhu..he wanted to be friends with me & wanted to know bout me more.but i dont think so..its creepy la dude!!OMG..then,in that msg he said that he knew where im from & where i m ryt now..psycho btul la...huhu..takut...

ps:syg...help me!!! come & save me!!! huhu

bz.bz.bz.....

2009-07-28T23:23:00.000-07:00

just caught up with lots & lots of stuff to do..penat,lelah,letih 4 sure smua ada..huhu..
sorry 4 not updatin my post earlier.just too..bz.

fyi,i was just appointed to be a script writer for my college's choral speaking team..i hav no idea for now.blank..i need to come up with a great yet interesting script on a theme that is PATRIOTISME asap.huhu..can anyone out there help me out?ya'll can give me some rough ideas,points & i'll try 2 elaborate it more 2 make it more longer,grand & interesting..

there are some interesting incidents happened just 2,3 days ago..
i'll tell ya'll in my next post ok.just wait patiently for 'em k?

hmm..

2009-07-10T08:27:00.000-07:00

its quite an interesting day 2day..i found out bout something!!hehe..

i cant wait 2 fly off..i dh naik penat dh stay at kl nie.huhu..mcm2 benda happened.dh naik mls dh nk pretend..i xnk la jd plastic!huhu..xnk bwat dosa dh..huhu..i just wanna be me.the REAL me.i cant take it anymore.

i need my 'old' fwen back!!
mish u so damn much..

2009-07-05T08:52:00.000-07:00

2009-07-05T08:30:00.000-07:00

2009-06-22T10:01:00.000-07:00

these things are makin me a better person & stronger as a person.i dun hav any idea of what to expect now..im ready 4 anything..

emotional distress..

2009-06-22T08:32:00.000-07:00

i knoe that evrything always happen for a reason.i knoe dat sumtyms im a bit over myself.but i do knoe who i really am.i cant sleep well lately..there's so much goin on in my lyf.skang nie mmg of course i sdg membengkakkn diri i.memendamkn sumthing.huhu..just waiting 4 da ryt tym to let it all go.so watch out k!!..waiting 4 the keyword..hehe..timing is evrything.

dont trouble the trouble if u dont want the trouble to trouble u!
what a great troublemaker u r!!poyo glewr..

i knoe that comin clean can cause a lot of damages..there's no reason 2 seek 4 forgiveness & there's no reason 2 be an idiot.its a noble thing 2 confess..and i really appreciate it if u do..im not gonna be the bad person here.just waitin 4 the right moment.i dun wanna b the 1 that trigger about that 'thing'.i want u to come clean with me.its just that..the more things change,the it becomes the same.u know..fyi,if u met the wrong person,ur life might be ruined..so..think about it..don't wait till its too late..

p/s:family is not just about blood ties.its about who's livin in our hearts.the brain can c what ur heart wanna c..inside & out.life is unpredictable,unstable & unacceptable sumtyms.it aint over till its over.

gathering @ tti

2009-06-17T09:29:00.000-07:00

well..td de gathering 4 my high skewl class..its quite fun & interesting la...although not so many guys yg dtg.i taw byk jgk la story td.hehe..need to catch up stories with my old bff's hehe...

i dunno y td cam i ni kinda in my own world..blurr la.ntah pape.hehe..cam berada di awangan taw..hehe..klaka jgk la..

td yg dtg farah,muni,cda,chu,fatin aima,mina,faisal,zaharul,izzul,berang,ku hisham,maiza,titi,iffah & her boifren..(agak over skit la kn..)cbuk jew..huhu..nie kn ktowg pnye gathering taw la u de boifren & evrything..xyah la bwk..2 pn td iffah xjoin mne la ktowg..asyik bkepit je yg boifren dye 2..if korg nk dating..carik la tym len..adoyaii..pelik la owg cmnie..ntahla..huhu..always lyk dat..not so fun..ok.muni plak ngan skandal dye..hmm..dh penat dh dgr bout dorg..cm2 jek..no progressin..on & off like always.i pn dh penat give my advice cm2 jek..cair jgk..ntahla minah nie..i dunno whats wrong her.hehe..i hope she cn get rid of that hopeless boy!hehe..next week pn de lg gathering...hish..kopak cmnie..hihihi..but its ok,once in a while kn..hopefully 4 the next week's gathering rmai la yg dtg.pasni mgkin dh xleh jmpe slalu dh..i pn bz pasni..xtaw la ble plak bleh blik tganu...huhu...cdey sgt.. :(

wedding tym!!

2009-06-15T10:11:00.000-07:00

me,my sis & my cousins..de lg rmai yg xmsuk.dua2 family belah parents i rmai anak2 dara yg cun2..kekurangan jejaka2.hehe..

along & kak long (hari bahgia dorg)

tagged - iqa

2009-06-14T10:35:00.000-07:00

1. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan wang sendiri??
- as far as i can rmember..a wedding gift for my brother & sister-in law

2. Apakah bende paling penting dlm hidup kamu?
- family
- my sygs..
- fwens
- phones
- precious lappy

3. Dimanakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu??
- dunno yet..

4. Berapa lama hubungan kamu berkekalan?
- paling lama..setahun stengah.

5. Adakah anda sedang dilamun cinta??
- dunno..skang happy wif my life.

6. Dimanakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam??
- dkat area btu burok wif aril.xdela mkn mlm..nie kire tym supper trus ah..

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?
- xigtla tjuk dye pe..lpe..

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu??
- Fatin Izatul Nadia Bt Mohd Zulkurnain

9. Kamu lebih senang dengan ayah atau mak??
- depends..but more to my dad..

10. Namakan seseorang yang ingin kamu jumpa dalam hidup kamu buat pertama kalinya??
- spe?

11. Sebutkan 8 nama sahabat yang paling rapat dengan kamu.
- nur afeeqah bt mohd zaimi
- nor shuhada mazlan
- daniel andrew aka andy..skang xtaw pe status..lost contact..
- afieq azariel
- faiz
- naimran
- amyra sharina
- mr m

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian sendiri??
- washing machine

13. Tempat yang paling seronok yang kamu mahu pergi?
- new zealand..

14. Butirkan 5 perkara tentang orang yang tag kamu..
- iqa
beliau:

* very good listener
* bleh thn jgkla dye pnye advice..maybe sumday bleh jd counselor..hehe..
* mesra alam
* bleh share anything ngan dye..
* my sayang..hehe..

15. 8 perkara yang amat saya gilai??

* internet
* my phones
* talkin 2 the ones i love
* texting
* writing
* lepak kt beach
* men hujan
* singing

16. Pelukan atau ciuman??
- both la..without any doubt.

17. 8 perkataan yang sering diucapkan??(kalau marah kat sapa2 ahh)
- so far..xpenah lg marah wg len..juz pendam jew..kne marah,maki penah la..mmg tym yg menyakitkn ati klu igt blik.sengal..

18. 8 lagu yang saya boleh dengar berulang kali

* eh eh (nothing else i can say)
* mad
* the climb
* i belong to me
* halo
* waking up in vegas
* disenchanted
* please dont leave me

20. Mari men'TAG' orang lain...

* cda
* nashriq
* whiztech
* ahmad
* shazwan
* bloggers

to whom it may concerned..

2009-06-02T09:54:00.000-07:00

fyi..i think u should give me a lil time out.i need sum space ryt nw..so please..let me heal myself first.when the tym is right & whenever im ready,i'll be there..promise..maybe some friends come for good & some are just during the seasons..just so u know..whatever it is..u'll always be my friend..now & forever..and for that..i rest my case.

lost..

2009-06-01T10:34:00.000-07:00

feelin kinda lost ryt now..maybe im startin to lose someone i care bout..a lot actually..dunno y..but im cool with it although inside..its burnin & shatter all over..i dont need somebody to complete me.i complete myself for now..not to anyone else..

its over..

2009-06-01T09:50:00.000-07:00

i taw u dh de girl 2 skang.kn korg dh jmpe family each other.u both suits 4 each other..so what the hell do u still want from me??leave me alone..please..i need some space rite now..1 thing i know is that she deserves u more than i do..so dont let her down ok?dont break another innocent heart..i know what it feels like.im hoping that u will be happier with her more than i do.so please..respect my decision ok?i just need to focus on my studies 1st.this is my 1st priority for now..although sumtimes,i feel a bit lonely..dont even bother to contact me again.just move on with your life & i with mine..ok?

im so sorry big brother..

2009-05-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

along..achik nk mintak maaf sgt2 sbb xdpt blik 4 along pnye majlis nikah kt tangkak this 29th may..sorry sgt2 sbb achik xleh lpaskn achik pnye duty kt cnie..huhu..lgpn achik secretary club nie..so i hav 2 take part & for the tym being this is my 1st priority..or else..but dont worry ok..achik kt cnie dh chat walafiat..alhamdulilh..feelin much better now..walaupn assgments & reports smakin menimbun..
huhu..even though achik xleh nk dtg majlis nikah along kt tangkak this 2..i'll be home 4 the majlis sambut menantu kt umah kte ok?achik hope along xde la cuak sgt ok!just relax..be cool..and chill ok!!hehe..hopefully majlis tu berjalan lancar..insyallh..aminnn..

im blank!!somebody help!! asap..

2009-05-23T10:21:00.000-07:00

anybody out there...huhu..i really in need of help..i kne siapkn 1 article about aussie..i dh de material 4 the articles but..i dunno nk link kn & elaborate skit bout all the stuff..but achik..just believe in urself & u can do anything..just chill out okay!!hehe..only time will tell..relax...cool..u can do it..

interesting places in aussie..come & join the fun!!

2009-05-23T10:08:00.000-07:00

im stuck in this empty room!!!somebody come and save me!!

2009-05-20T02:33:00.000-07:00

evrybody's havin fun & chillin off outside..i je yg stuck kt dlm blik nie..huhu..damn!!my flu is gettin a bit worse..but no worries its just a lil flu..thats all..its ok.maybe its not my day 2day..kn?2morrow never dies..esk masih ada..2morrow will be mine..haha..mr n watch out ok!u ktuk2 i ske2 ati je just now..2day is ur day..we'll just wait & see ok!!
i'll torture u 2morrow..haha..somebody out there if u can hear me out...just come and save me from this sorrow..& maybe lighten up my day..

tagged by iqa

2009-05-14T08:34:00.000-07:00

1.What have you been doing recently?
nothing much..just writing sum stuff & chillin' out..

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?

whenever im pissed off & im need to be alone..

3.What happened at 10am today?

waiting for confirmation from mr F.hehe..

4.When did you last cry?

wednesday,aprill 22..dat is the day i dislocated my right shoulder..hurts lyk hell..huhu..

5.Believe in fate/destiny?

totally..if not im not here right nw.

6.What do you want in your life now?

kind off lonely right nw..maybe a lil companionship..true love??maybe..i dunno la..friendships that last forever..a happy family & life full of blessings..

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?

depends on the situation..

8.What’s your favourite thing to do on the bed?
reading some novels..berangan..baring2..then..tito..

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?

shorts..

10.What’s the nicest things in your inbox?
msg frm my besties.

11.Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?

hmm..sumtimes..klu x, plain je life ni ryt??boring jew..

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?

as far as i can rmember..nothing..all mine..

13.What was the last movie you caught?

fast & furious 4..syok glewr..

14.What are you proud of?

a part from me..being away from my family..friends & family that always support & back me up.

15.What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?

cannot be stated here..sowy..its kinda private & personal..from my ex.

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?

lady gaga - eh eh (nothing else i can say) just nw..

17.Do you have any nicknames?
achik - family
atin - certain friends from ss2,smss
fin - most of da tym (fwenss)
finnymoe - fwenss at current college
chik atin - my lil nephew & niece

18.What does the newest text say and from who?
frm mr F..sayin sorry coz cannot join with me & iqa hang out 2day..
too much nonsense xcuse..haha..wut ever..

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
around 2 am.lyn cte csi..hehe

20.Are you currently happy?
for the tym being..yeahh..totally..free from troubles..& lovin it..

21.Who gives you the best advise?
hmm..iqa,angah,mr f,andy,aril

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
hehe..sumtimes..

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?
naim

24.Is something bugging you now?
na'ah..

25.Who was the last person to make you laugh?
iqa.share hot story wif her..hehe

Tagging :
syazwan.ahmad

Mr. A latest pics..

2009-05-14T08:23:00.000-07:00

would u date your bestfriend's ex??

2009-05-09T01:10:00.000-07:00

its an interesting title isn't it??haha...is it ok??to me,depends on the condition on how they broke up.if it is ugly,i don't think so.but,if they're still friends after that,y not kn?da important thing here is that u try to confront with your bestfriend first,just tell them what u really feel & ask for him/her opinion..klu korg xdiscuss about that dlu,t korg akn merana..what i mean is,klu korg date ex bestfriend korg behind their backs..t dorg akn think that korg stabbed them on the back!lg la kacau kn?t karang xpsl2 plak korg gaduh ngan bestfriend korg pasal benda ni.just be frank la towards your bestfriends k?

maybe some friends come for good,others are just during the seasons..
ya'll understand what i mean here right?

I'm in REAL pain ryt now..huhu..

2009-04-24T21:51:00.000-07:00

last 2 days,me & my housemates dh make a deal..kitorg akn kemas umah on dat day.seeing on the condition of the house..omg.totally wrecked up,bersepah.hehe..bwat malu je..nme pn pompuan..
hehe..aduyaii..dat one whole day kitorg kemas umah..the whole house.btw,i forgot to mention..im in the exam mode ryt nw..thats y kitorg kemas umah dat day.so that umah kitorg bersih la & selesa for we all to revise & study together..

then,tgh syok2 kitorg kemas umah..ade uninvited guest dtg.aduyai..kitorg tgh sweating2 & berbau..xselesa la nk ajk dat sum1 masuk.then,my house mate,mia..juz halau je dat sum1..hehe..thank god!but i hope that person xde hard feelings towards us la.dh 2 dye dtg tym yg xssuai..nk bwat cmne aite?hope he understands..

u know what,dat particular day is just not a good day 4 me.my worst nightmare is becoming more realistic nw.huhu..quite scary though..i picked up a box full of books & try na put it on top of the cupboard..agak berat jgk la box 2.then,out of nowhere..i heard a sound..omg!its coming my right shoulder!!!i just dislocated my right shoulder..adoiii..sakit...at that tym,only god knows how hurtful it was for me... its unbearable..but thank god,mia was there & she's the one who help me hold the box.if not,i dunno whats gonna happen to me.

then,she takes me to the Cedars-Sinai Medical Center..i dunno how i got dislocated my right shoulder.that tym,mmg panic glewr.dh la esoknye ade paper..aduhh..dh la terkehel plak bahu kanan..im a right-handed person.aduhh..cmne la nk jwb paper nnt.after seeing dr reynolds,he fixed my shoulder right back to its normal place & bandaged my shoulder.then i kne pkai 'that thing' for about 2-3 weeks.dye ckp jgk sruh i rest byk2..especially my right hand.jgn byk bergerak sgt.then kitorg de appointment lagi 3 weeks.terseksa glewr la skang nie.mmg miserable glewr.nk write a few notes pn a bit difficult 4 me.but thank god,my lecturer understands my condition.they let me use my laptop to answer the paper.

fyi,i xbgtaw pn my family about 'this thing' t im afraid if they worried sick about me.n maybe they told me to come home.but nevertheless,so far im good.im ok.its just my shoulder.no big deal la..at least i can go & answer my xm paper like anybody else.the difference is that im the only one using my laptop to answer.im not skipping & im not dropping from the exams..im becoming more tougher person now.

p/s:that doc is kinda cute actually..hehe..by seeing his face,makes me in less pain..hehe..

a lil somethin 4 my special one..iqa..

2009-04-16T03:17:00.000-07:00

a friend..is like a tissue when u can't stop crying
a friend..is like a soul when u feel like dying
a friend..always listens when u have something to say
a friend..is like a week when u need a day
a friend..is a crutch when u have a broken heart
a friend..is some glue when everything falls apart
a friend..is like a sun when the rain just won't stop
a friend..is like 'your mum' when u ran into a cop
a friend..is like a phone call when u can't leave your home
a friend.. is a hand when u feel all alone
a friend..is a wing if u want to fly
a friend..understands without knowing y
a friend..is an ear for a secret to tell
a friend..is an aspirin when your head hurts like hell..especially when the 'migrain' comes
a friend..is a love that can never let go
a friend..is you,and i wanted u to know that i love u damn much..
i hope that the FRIENDSHIP & the SISTERHOOD between u 'n' me is forever more... ** ^_^

true friends are the people who walk into our lives & no matter what happens they will never leave..

p/s:iqa,its just from my heart expressing what im feelin towards u & our friendship..actually,its your birthday present dear..sorry la a bit late..its just that i need a lil tym finishing it.its totally from my heart to u,my friend.well, happy belated 9teenth birthday yang..i hope u like it!comment la skit k?hehe..ni cme minor present jew..yg major 2..tggu i blik t k?hope 2 c u very soon yang!luv ya!

alamak..ade owg majuk ngan ktew la..huhu..

2009-04-16T02:09:00.000-07:00

dat day,i kt airport klia..bout half an hour b4 my flight to US,i called 'this dude'.an old friend of mine..(im pretty sure iqa,u know who i meant here dont cha?hehe..)i kinda surprised call him.mamat nie agk tkejut jgkla.hehe..he tot i blik by the end of this year.then,dye ckp y xinform dye b4 i fly?huhu..aduyaii..majuk truss mamat nie..huhu..agak weird actually ngan mamat nie lately.he's so..emotional lately.idk y..act,i xsmpat pn blik umah..juz kt kl je for exactly 3 days..omg! (after smpai kt US blik,jet lag glewr..last2 cramp..penat glewr seyh..)then,2 days after that de quiz taw.huhu..mmg rush glewr la.i blik kl pn sbb a 'lil' stuff goin on.

back to the main story here..hehe..mamat nie frust glewr taw nk jmpe ngan i.dye nk story sumthing.dye nk share sumthing ngan i,but,i ask him,dye ckp xleh gtaw on the phone..(aikkk??cam plik jew..huhu..whats goin on dude??whats wrong??)aduyaii..mmg pity glewr la ngan mamat nie.n becoz of that i rse a lil bit guilt la towards him.he's one of my best 'guy' friends ever taw..so..kpd sesape yg bkenaan,im so..sorry.bkn i xnk gtaw i de blik,its juz that i de hal pnting sgt nk handle.ni pn bkn i blik trengganu,just kl jew.xsmpat pn nk jmpe ngan family.just my sister yg stay kt kl yg smpat i jmpe..neway,maybe my big brother kawen t i'll try to come back home..n klu smpat,kte jmpe k?sorry sgt dude!

p/s:iqa,i know what u're thinkin hehe..what i need to stress here is that its nothin goin on between us k.but im quite curious pe F nk share with me 2.huhu..p i hope u jgn tnye pape la ngan mamat 2 k?please....huhuhu..just let me know it 1st from him k?promise?its a secret between us yang...im counting on u dear..

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You

2009-04-03T01:20:00.000-07:00

Comparisons are easily done
once you've had a taste of perfection
like an apple hanging from a tree
I pick the ripest one i still got the seed

you said move on where do i go
I guess second best is all i will know

cause when i'm with him i am thinking of you, thinking of you
what you would do if
you were the one who was spending the night
oh i wish that i was looking into your eyes

you're like an indian summer in the middle of winter
like a hard candy with a surprise center

how do i get better once i've had the best

you said there's tons of fish in the waters
so the waters i will test

he kissed my lips i taste your mouth
he pulled me in, i was disgusted with myself

cause when i'm with him i am thinking of you, thinking of you
what you would do if
you were the one who was spending the night
oh i wish that i was looking into your....

the best and oh i do regret
how could i let myself let you go
and now, now the lessons learned
i touched and i was burned
oh i think you should know

cause when i'm with him i am thinking of you, thinking of you
what you would do if
you were the one who was spending the night
oh i wish that i was looking into your eye,looking into your eyes,looking into your eye
and won't you walk through and
bust in the door and take me away oh.. no more mistakes
cause in your eyes i'd like to stay..

need a lil break..just me tyme..

2009-04-03T01:02:00.000-07:00

well...sorry la..a bit late on posting..lately bz wif xms.....huhu..
penat,letih, smua ada la..de lil fight ngan housemate..bkn pe..just nk dye bkak mate je la..
bout what happen..aduyaii..pening tol ngan minah nie..last2 dye jgk yg mnx opinion kte..huhu..
pas2 minx tlong temankn de confront ngan parents dye..aduyaii...its a huge deal la..act,i xnk la de link with her probs..p nk wat cne..dye pn housemate i..kne la help her right??t if i plak yg de probs..im pretty sure she'll help.aite??klu x spe lg kn??

i dunno y,
i xley nk fully concerntrate on the lecture td,
and of course,mmg blur abis tyme lecture 2,
@%$*&#*****@!
something was bothering my mind,
guess i dun have to mention bout it here,
i miss ...
but not too much..just a lil bit =p
lately,i've been praying a lot,
so that i'll be given some strength on what happened in my lyf,
i dun have to elaborate more on this. just put it a stop there.

cube dekatkan diri dengan-Nya,
syukur..sedikit sebanyak my mind free,
dpt hilangkan skit gundah gulana dalam hati ni,
ptg td pg jogging,
try to relax my mind,
jiwa tyme 2 mmg perghh..btol2 tenang,
Alhamdulillah..mmg berbaloi,
walaupun just for half an hour,
but it is worth..
eventhough ramai yg pertikaikan knape i still nk jogging ptg 2,
(at least bleh hang out ngan kwn2 kt mall ptg 2)
but that not is the reason..
yg pentingnye i enjoy myself very much,
jogging and music yg dapat kasi i tenang skang ney,
and of course..dun forget Him.

btw,spring break is just around the corner..can't wait to be free from all the books..hehe..
n i know a few days from now...someone i love soo..much is havin her birthday soon..hehe..
n i got a lil surprise 4 her..

during the winter season..

2009-03-08T11:10:00.001-07:00

its cold outside..

a cute lil girl on her snow cart

me with some friends hangin out chillin..

snow boarding area..

im just a little unwell..

2009-03-08T10:04:00.000-07:00

I have been unwell for the past couple of days because of the sudden change in weather but yeah... still managed to have fun & catch up with some friends.currently reading A NEW EARTH by ECKART TOLLE.so far..this book has been inspired me in looking in life from another angle.it has been a best seller all around the states..

wedding on the way!

2009-03-06T10:24:00.000-08:00

well..2morrow,one of my friend's sister will be gettin married.Sara's sister of course.can't wait to go on her wedding day.so far,i've never been to an English wedding before.it kinda excites me!hehe..happy wedding day to both of u,Samantha & big brother,John.

2009-03-05T18:39:00.000-08:00

1. How old are you?
sya awu 7 taun :P

2. Are you single?
single vs available??

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
probably around 25...ooppss..x pun awal.depends..

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
wallallahuallam...the main point here is im still single mingle twingle.hehe

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
of course,jejaka idaman pujaan hatiku ini yg berjaya menawan diriku ini..hehe :P

6. Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?
depends on the budget...(if english garden ok gak) but the wedding only for close friends & family je kot..kekeke

7. Your ideal motive?
mysterious =P

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
a place where only both of us can stay and spend our quality time 2gether ..peacefully and happily without any other disturbance.. :P

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
depends..huhu..

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
less is more.. means simple but meaningful

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you'd make up on your own?
i prefer my own :)

12. How many layers of cake do you want?
4..maybe..leh la letak bnyk flavour.. hehe..(cam bley je..)

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or a simple place?
again..depends on the budget..maybe hotel la kot.. =p

14. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
kalau siang takut panas.nnti berpeluh..dh x cun..i much more prefer night time.bru happening skit..tpi lau mlm sesuai buat kat hotel..
jadi..diantara. ader x??

15. You'd rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
outdoor probably..without raining..

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your wedding day?
absolutely...im the light of the ceremony..hehe...{^_*}

18. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
of course the romantic ones...lg happening if that particular singer can sing on my wedding day.

19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
midnight ader?

20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
half solemn..half light.(half2)bley??

.22. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
hmm... still imaging..but the most important thing is that,he can accept & love me for who i am...

23. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
both actually..

24. Champagne or red wine?
neither.much more prefer fruit juices..

25. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
klu bleh right away la..hehe.. :p but maybe days after kot..sbb kaki dh lenguh sbb pakai kasut tinggi lama sgt =p

26. Money or household items?
both..meshi...

27. Who will pay for the bills?
kita gilir2 ye or maybe share la.half2... ikut kemampuan.. :)

28. Are you ready for married life?
nope..not yet. but...

29. Do you think you will still be a virgin until you get married?
insyaAllah..amin..

30. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
insyaAllah..

31. How many kids would you like to have?
4..sbb i like no 4..twins pun nak gak.. (tamak nye...ish3..)

32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
of course newly wed bley?? high hills or maybe at the coast..

33. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
depends on which country side's cuisine I have

34. Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or DVD?
definately..it's once in a life..hopefully..

35. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?
in particular..i dunno.but if can,i nak Datuk Raja Shah Reza boleh?? :p

36. Tag t0;
-ms iqa
- ahmad bin ariffin
- mohd syazwan

and for those who want to do these..u r welcome..

well... I'm done for now.. tenkiu...

tagged by-ms.iqa

2009-03-05T17:44:00.000-08:00

Have you had a girlfriend or boyfriend?
for the time being, im happy being single mingle twingle.hehe..but i do hav my best girlfriend ever!
(u know who u r)

Have you had your birthday?
nope.but it will come sooner or later.

Been to mosque?
of course..but now,ssh skit nk carik mosque kt cnie..huhu..

Cried yet?
yeah.yesterday..huhu.. ;(

Had someone close to you pass away?
no.

Pulled an all nighter?
wut?

Drank Starbucks?
yeah..sometimes..

Gone shopping?
OF COURSE DUDE!!

Gone to the beach?
yeah.last december,just hangin out with my syg,iqa

Gone to the movies?
confessions of a shopaholic.the movie was great!!i read the book before,but as always,the book is much better.hehe..

Bought something over RM 100?
a dress..

Met someone new?
ermm as far as i can remember...not haha

Been out of your home state?
totally.yeah..not only my home state,my home country.currently at united states..

Gone snowboarding/skiing?
next weekend with some friends..can't wait!!!

IN THE PAST MONTH
Kissed someone?
not..but that one particular day ill never forget.almost kiss someone!!huhu..quite embarassing..

Slept in a friend's bed?
no.

Snuck someone over?
owhh..not.

Snuck out of your own house?
last december..yeah..i just want to break free from my home!just wanna free my mind..for a few days..hehe.. :p

Been in a bar?
yeah..but only once.

Lied?
yeah.when i have 2..:(

Gotten a car?
urmm well,i think so yes.its a bmw 5 series.but right now i dunno who takes care of my car.maybe 'his cousin'huhu..

Gone over your cell phone minutes?
yeah.especially with my mom..

Been called a whore?
not

Drove somewhere?
always.although i dont have any licence yet. haha

Done something you regret?
yeah.but the past is history.just move on & live your life!!

Gotten caught?
nope.

LASTS
Thing you bought?
a snow cap

Person to call you?
andy.mish him so much..

Last time you took a bubble bath?
last weekend

When was the last time you felt stupid?
most of the time huhu

When was the last time you walked/ran a mile?
frm my apartment to class..im overslept..huhu..penat..

Who was the last person saw you cry?
nobody.ill find a place where i need to let it all go..all by myself.i'm gud in hiding stuff hehe

Who was the last person made you cry?
u know who u r.im pretty sure of that..

Who was the last person you watched a movie with?
danny,lila,brianna,liyana & farah

Who was the last person you danced with?
naim.act,he's my partner la..we sign in for a dance class together..hehe..quite fun & tempting 2 sometimes..hehe

Who did you last yell at?
u know who u r (AA)

Who last told you they loved you?
iqa.ily so much 2 yang..hugs & kisses from afar..

sometimes things just don't work out like we want to..

2009-03-04T08:26:00.000-08:00

phew..just finished my play..its quite satisfying though..huhu..i express what im feelin right now through my drama club.huhu..its quite funny jgk la at 1st..hehe..the play is a about a rebellious kids nowadays..im one of those kids.the truth is..in my class,i just write on my journal about my life.then adela someone nie..kinda curik bace taw pe yg i tulis ari2..aduhh.then,this someone,pnyela baik ati.tell my lecturer taw.then dorg recommend my journal 2 utk bwat 1 play for our drama club taw..aduiii..tension!!!huhu..dh byk kali dorg persuade me utk bwat this play taw..then at last.i give up..i bgla diorg permission to do the play..

the time has come 4 the casting for the play..dorg xjmpe2 jgk someone yg suitable be my part in the play..last2 dorg jgk pick me to be myself..OMG!!!i dunno what to do..then,i pn accept dorg pnye offer.haha..quite shocking is my acting is quite sucks u know..haha..agak kayu..stone..mcm2.hehe..the play is quite catch everyone's eyes.agak rmai jgk la yg dtg tgk ktorg pnye play that night..huhu..

im freakin' pissed off !!!

2009-02-27T04:37:00.000-08:00

my mom just called..i had a fight with her.im so pissed off,frustrated,tense..its all in one..argh!!!i think i always had a migraine when it comes to my mom..huhu..just now,dye ckp yg i ni selfish person.i don't even think about someone else when i wanna do something..ikut hati je nk buat sumthin.yg paling i x tahan n i can't stand to hear from her,my own mother is that she said yg i ni anak yg xkenang budi..ske susahkn org lain la especially dye.(thats what she said though)..aduhh..arghh!!..bengang tol la..among my other siblings, i think i yg paling malang taw.my life sucks right now..ya allah..tolongla hambamu ini..i kinda like the ugly duckling @ the black sheep in the family..im so freakin pissed off right now.im freakin stressed out that my mom's been holding me back since..ever..argh..

and as for my mom..mama,achik arap mama bleh maafkan smua dosa2 achik,benda2 yg achik bwat mama sakit hati ke ape ke yg bwat mama xtahan.achik taw..achik ni mmg keras kepala skit,but im doing all this for myself.i hope u understand,mom..achik respect mama ngan abah because without u & dad i wont live until today..huhu..but whats done is done right??we can't turn back time.

im just a girl in a tough situation.i hope that maybe someday..someone can help & save me from this pain & sorrow.i know everything happens for a reason.im cool with that..

maybe its a sign from up above..i dunno..huhu..

2009-02-23T02:43:00.000-08:00

lately, i have unusual, strange n better yet maybe meaningful dreams to me..i dunno.sometimes NIGHTMARES..huhu..but most of the dreams are about my friends,family & of course "me"..
maybe in the future..it might happens..who knows right??i hope some of it happens..someday..hehe..

right now,im workin on writing a beautiful poetry..huhu..i hope i can finish it by time.it stress me a lil bit though..because when i write something i need to focus on it entirely & be in that particular mood..u know what i mean right?but right now,im kinda in a middle of a mess..huhu..if somebody can help me,i really appreciate it..

just a posting from what i feel inside..

2009-02-22T23:45:00.000-08:00

The rest of your life is a long time and whether you know it or not it's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is but for the most part you get what you give because life is like a wheel sometimes u r at the top & sometimes u r at the bottom of it . Let me ask you a question. What's worse than not getting everything you wished for or getting it but finding out it's not enough? The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right here,right now...

Its never too late to realize what is important in your own life.u are the one who makes the decisions for yourself not anyone else.2mrrw is a new day..its tym 2 erase & overcome our mistakes that we did yesterday..im just givin out a piece of my mind..

Thanks 4 been a best friend to me..

2009-02-21T14:10:00.000-08:00

thanks for putting my broken life back together
if it wasn't for you i wouldn't be where i am today or be who i am
thanks for been there when i needed a shoulder to cry on
thanks for not pushing me away when i done the bad things
thanks for letting me be who i am
i feel like i can be myself around you
because thats what true friends do
thanks for been there for me
but most of all thanks for been you..

ps:u know who u r to me..

im lonely..

2009-02-21T10:37:00.000-08:00

im feelin a bit neglected today..nobody wants to accompany me today.everybody's busy finishing their assignments.with the deadline is around the corner. im so frustrated right now.just not in the mood..i need someone to talk to right now..

u needed me..

2009-02-21T09:17:00.000-08:00

i cried a tear,u wiped it dry

i was confused,u cleared my mind

i sold my soul,u bought it back 4 me
and held me up and gave me dignity
somehow u needed me
u gave me strength to stand alone again
to face the world out on my own again
u put me high upon a pedestal
so high that i could almost see eternity
u needed me,u needed me

and i can't believe it's u
i can't believe it's true
i needed u and u were there
and i'll never leave,why should i leave?
i'd be a fool 'cause i finally
found someone who really cares

u held my hand when it was cold
when i was lost u took me home
u gave me hope when i was at the end
and turned my lies back into truth again
u even called me 'friend'

ps:im just expressing what im feelin rite now..

L.O.V.E.

2009-02-21T09:03:00.000-08:00

Love is the strongest and most fulfilling emotion possible.
It lets you share your goals, your desires, your experiences in life...
It lets you share your life with someone u care about
It lets you be yourself with someone who will always support you no matter what
It lets you speak your innermost feelings to someone who understands you
It lets you feel the tenderness and warmth a wholeness that avoids loneliness
Love lets you fell complete.....

im sorry 4 what i've done to u..

2009-02-18T02:07:00.000-08:00

im really tryin 2 say so much more than just those 3 little words...
im tryin 2 say that u mean more to me than anyone else in this world,
that i adore u and cherish the time we've spent together.

im tryin to tell u that u are the nicest thing that ever happened to me.
specially for u(u know who u r),

im sorry 4 what i've done to u..

i believe i can fly..

2009-02-12T07:52:00.001-08:00

Yesterday was da most exciting day 4 me.i've done 4 da 1st tym in my life,SKY DIVING!!! its so cool..i feel like i was flying on my own when i was in the air..wow!! im free!!! hehe..sky diving is da most xtreme stuff i've ever done in my entire lyf...i hope that ya'll can enjoy this xtreme stuff someday!! i'll guarantee that it will be da most unforgettable moment in ur life..i'm da one who wears da white helmet.i sky dive with mr ryan..

it's hard 4 me 2 understand myself..

2009-02-09T06:46:00.000-08:00

y is it so hard 4 me 2 understand,
this feelings,the more i want 2 wash away these memories..
the more stronger i feel about missing u,
4 the 1st time in my life,at that time,being there 4 u,
it almost feels like my grief,my sorrow is gone..

im just takin baby steps to reach down inside me
to understand what im feelin right now about u,
about us,about everything..i need some time..

Friendship...

2009-02-09T06:12:00.000-08:00

Friendship..
A friend should be someone who will always be there;
to take time to listen, to help out & care.
A friend should be someone who makes u feel good;
who is able to cheer u when u're down & when no one else could.
A friend should be warm, understanding & true;
someone u trust who will let u be u..

thanks 4 da love & imy & hope 2 c u very soon my dear..

the sweetest girl..

2009-02-09T03:21:00.000-08:00

Afeeqah, the sweetest girl I've ever known.. 4 once, i think she's some kind of gift from God 2 me. because ever since i met her when we was like 16,we just became best girlfriends since then.we sat next to each other in the same classroom when we're in form 5.we share evrything & do anything together.we hang out 4 sometimes b4 im off to college.

till 2day,Afeeqah is one of the most my trusted,best girlfriend ever..I'm glad & thankful 2 be her best girlfriend..she's the only person who knew me well..(i mean my secrets & scandals)haha...i miss her & love her a lot.i hope our friendship will never fade away & last 4 ever..

i miss you so much & hopefully can meet you soon..

after 4 years...

2009-02-06T09:16:00.000-08:00

its kinda weird after 4 years without any connection.i dunno whether im happy,im glad seeing him back or else.feels like evrything mixed..huhu..

our BIG family, BIG dinner of 2008 memories..

2008-12-15T23:42:00.000-08:00